by Chris Carter of The Mom Cafe, Regular MOMtor Contributor
I have come to realize in my almost 46 years of living, that my faith walk isn’t really about me at all.
I always used God as a means to my strength, my peace, my hope, my joy, and my inspiration in this life of selfish sufficiency. He was in my heart, oh yes.
But was my heart truly in His? Was I pursuing true faithfulness?
My faithfulness would ebb and flow through all of life’s circumstances and interference in my plans. I would thank Him for my blessings and question Him in my suffering. I would ignore Him in my prideful distractions and then plead for Grace in my selfish failures. I would seek Him to learn and grow to be a better person. I would pull and push and pull and push, as I needed and through the years, I adjusted my faith in Him accordingly. Oh, how I would use Him in a mighty way for my purpose. It was all about…
As I come to this deep realization of my faith, I am slowly becoming aware of how misleading my walk has been. He is ever so gently whispering to me and opening my heart to this changing perspective. I see the depths of where my faith must go, and I am humbled at the sight of what true faithfulness actually means.
Its newness is still sticky and salty, as the sweetness of His Grace wraps around my heart. I always thought I was such a faithful soul as I lingered in His Light for years. I just didn’t know that His Power and His Purpose for me, for you, for each and every one of us…
Is all about Him.
Now please be assured that every detail in our lives matter so deeply to Him. Oh, how I have been loved and cared for by my Heavenly Father every day of my life. And I believe He has done the same for YOU. He is faithful to us, in every way. But are we faithful to Him?
If we pause in our busy lives to really delve deep into His Word and His Plan- it might strike you as it did me. There is a much bigger picture than our life stories. Oh, I fear we have lost sight of it. I know I am innocently unaware of the Greatness that is God. But what little I am discovering, leaves me breathless.
Oh, my friends…
It’s so much more than us.
If you believe in a Mighty Majestic God, could you also believe that His Sovereign Divinity is bigger than you? Could you trust that as much as He Loves us, He wants so desperately to have us join in His Purpose?
Faithfulness to me has changed and shifted in a powerful way.
I believed that this very sacred intention was about staying faithful to God through our journey, and trusting in His Plan for us. And it DOES!
But there is another piece to faithfulness:
We are to put Him First.
True faithfulness is living For HIS purpose and staying steady on His course, not ours. His Disciples lived this kind of faithfulness. But are we?
The paradox of this is that I always lived my faith the opposite…
My plan… with my faith in Him.
It’s an innocent take on faith. We are self-centered beings. But the Greater faith lies in this:
His Plan… with His faith in me.
This, my friends is faithfulness.
Does He truly have your faith?
I suppose we all need to ask this imperative question in the quiet of our hearts. As mothers, we might be capable of changing our faith walk and teaching our children about this very truth. And yet with this kind of faithfulness brings many difficult challenges…
All notably about giving of ourselves in a way that is possibly new and uncomfortable at best.
Can we shift our focus in this life to Him? Can we surrender our plans to His Greater Purpose? Can we sacrifice our will to His Will? This type of faith leads us to opening our eyes to the Greatness of His Glory and His Heavenly Plan. Achingly so. I believe I am just touching the sweet surface of His Sovereignty.
Oh, how I hope I can truly be faithful. I pray I can stretch beyond myself to discover His Vision, not mine. And in doing so, the frame that surrounds my life will be set in an entirely new picture.
This post is part of our eight-week series, “Spirited Mom: A Fruity Look at Mothering.” We’re focusing on a different Fruit of the Spirit each week, as it applies to mothering.
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Before having children, Chris Carter worked as a music therapist for several years in Chicago’s inpatient psychiatric hospitals. She also managed creative arts and recreation programming for four group homes. In that time of her life, she learned and grew to know the pain and suffering of so many people. She is now a stay-at-home mom and currently spends her days running kids to and from school four times a day, volunteering and keeping the house in some sort of order! She has a thriving blog, The Mom Cafe, where she regularly shares her mothering experience and wisdom.